I'd Like to Add . . .

It's really hard for me sometimes to write a post (especially about something I would consider meaningful and deep) and not have a fantastic, neat, tied up ending.  Even though I often can't even deliver the kinds of endings I'd like to put on my posts, I try.  And that's nice sometimes.  It's nice for stories or devotionals or feel-good motivational thoughts.  But in real life, neat and tied up endings happen less than non-neat, loose endings do.  It's a sign of a good, entertaining story to have everything addressed at the end.  That's nice, but it isn't a sign of something genuine because like I just said, in real life, not everything is addressed or comes to a conclusion.  As a matter of fact, sometimes I've gone through old journals and wanted to cringe when, at the end of a good entry, I just had to throw in a nice resolve or "it's all going to be okay" thought.  Of course now I see that it was all okay, and I'm glad I could ...

It's so cool to me to watch life come together.  Maybe it was just that up until now, I've always been younger than I am now (which sounds duh) but I've always felt kind of like I was looking up and watching everything happen above me.  In movies, in books, in America (I spent most of my growing up years overseas).  It always seemed distant.  It's always seemed like the normal lifey things happened to people that weren't me.  And I mean, it's not like I'm trying to say I live some kind of movie/fairytale life now.  Nope.  It's hard sometimes and it hurts sometimes, but other times it's so happy and soo exciting I could just burst.  The thing is though, life has always been doing that.  There's no secret I've found that unlocked the kind of life that people in books or movies seem to enjoy or not always even enjoy-just the kind of life that other people have .  Hey, maybe it's just cause I've always been weird.  Probably....