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My Reward

It is so strange to me how when I embrace you as my reward, I find myself so satisfied.  Even more satisfied than if I had pursued and attained all the things I thought I wanted for so long.
It baffles me how when I give you all of my love without reservation, I find my heart even more filled than it was before.  When I decide not to spare any of what I have and pour it all out on you, I find my cup runs over even more.  I have held love back because I was afraid I wouldn't have enough to give to others if I give it all to you but it really works the other way.  When I lavish my love on you, before I know it, I find myself overflowing- with more than I know what to do with.  And then I can't help but embrace the ones around me with it.  Because how can I keep you all to myself?  You're too good.
You are my reward. I stray but I know You're the only one who satisfies.  All that my soul really desires is all of You and all of me is what You require, God.

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