Monday, October 22, 2012: The date that I originally put this picture in a draft and saved it with the title "It's for real." I thought I was going to a place called the International House of Prayer in Kansas City for an internship. I thought it was for real. I could barely believe it myself because I was planning to do something very far outside of my comfort zone, but it was for real. I was going to be moving away from my family, hometown, most of my friends, and the familiarity of what I've spent the last 7 years knowing life to be. I'm not writing this post to tell the story of what happened or why in March, I'm still here, living with my family in my hometown with most of my friends and that familiarity still surrounding me. While I could explain the mental process of my decision not to go, I cannot tell you why I'm here instead of there right now, because even I don't know. I know that in c...