Jesus, I'm sitting outside and I was about ready to blog but you told me to pray for a while first and since mom and Sarah are laying on the deck here next to where I'm sitting I think the best way for me to do that right now is to write out my prayer with this keyboard. It's a little chilly just sitting out here but it's November 6th and I'm amazed that it's not unpleasantly cold. And the sky is all cloud covered but it's still beautiful. There's something about it that's beautiful. I think it's the color. I can't decide whether it's purple or orange but I think it's a mix of the two. It's beautiful the way it shows off the silhouettes of the trees too. It's beautiful laying on my back on the deck staring up at the vast sky. You have really helped me get my mind a lot clearer tonight and I appreciate it. I know it probably can't keep on lasting exactly like this because I still feel a pinching on my heart, an aching. But looking up at the sky, realizing a little bit more of how big it is, this pinching pain goes away a little. Not because I am realizing how big the big picture is. More so because I know you made it and if you made this huge sky, I know my problems aren't going to stop everything from being ok in the end.
So about the future. I obviously don't know it so it makes sense that this one might be a little shorter (or longer-it could logically go either way, I just went with shorter). There are litterally (at least) a hundred different ways it could go. After the internship I'm doing, I might stay on there. Or I might come back here. If I come back here I could work, go away to college, take classes from home, live with my parents, move out with some friends, get some kind of certification and work a more specific job, come back to the office job I have now, etc. Or I could move to CA and live with some family and find a job with some distant cousins. Or I could move to some other random state and adventure there. The list of possibilities goes on and on. What sounds best to me right now is to do one of the aforementioned options that have to do with moving back here but we really will see won't we.