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Leaning to Lean

As I stand before this broken wall of glass
The ghost of my past has been snatched away.
I feel naked and bare.
I hated it but I was so used to it being there-
Creeping, haunting my every move
As if I were a puppet without a will to choose.
And now this pull that was so strong
That demanded my allegiance
Is gone.

This is the feeling of being set free-
Sometimes confused with an enemy.
Because this monster
I was used to.
It's lies I thought were truth till
You broke through.
There was blood all over but as you ripped it out of me
You looked me in the eye and said
It is finished. Be free.

As I stand before this broken wall of glass
Where you broke in
And threw out the lie on which I depended
I look into your eyes
And know I've been defended
I will not grieve this riddance
Even though it's a habit of mine to miss.
I will not sway to contemplate
If choosing you was a mistake.

For now that one on which I lean
Is my Beloved.
It is finished.
I am free.







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