Wounded with Love

"You have wounded me with your love
and I'll never be the same again
I try to run, I try to hide
but my heart burns
it burns with your fire
set a fire down in my soul
that I can't contain and I can't control
I want more of you God
I love you Lord
I don't care what it looks like"

This wound is one that I love. This wound draws me back to you time and time again. I try to walk away but my heart has been awakened to love and now I can't turn away. This hurt keeps me yearning for more of the love that changed me forever. This seal that has been stamped on my heart will forever brand me Yours.

At first it didn't make sense to me. At first I didn't understand how a wound would ever be good, but then you showed me that you had to wound me for my heart to be replaced with yours. At first I wanted to run and I tried to, but you wouldn't let me get away from something so wonderful. You don't force me to stay- but the impact of your love won't leave my mind the moment I turn away.
You tell me you love me no matter what and now I can't go back to the place where love is only alive when I feel it.
I see your face and I know I will never be satisfied settling for someone else-You are the only one who fulfills me because I was designed to desire You. You see the deepest part of me and You're still here. You showed me what faithfulness is, despite me. No matter how hard I tried, I cannot go back to what I was before because now that this love has been lavished on me, there's no other way to explain it but my heart is changed and now You are what I want.

Clear The Stage

This song was first brought to my attention a few months ago - when one of my biggest idols was being exposed for what it really was. Since I've been learning all along, but especially today, that vulnerability is something that should increase as you become more and more rooted in the Lord, I will be vulnerable with you here and now. One of my biggest idols for about half of my life was liking guys. And while it was specific guys that I would like, my idol was moreso just having someone to daydream, think, talk and pray about. I realize that liking somebody isn't sin in itself. I actually think that romanctic love is one of the big ways that the Lord is glorified through our hearts as humans. It became an idol though, because I allowed it to be my god. I based my relationship with God on how my love life was. When someone would ask me how I was, I would reply based on my relationship with the person I liked. When I prayed, a majority of the content of my

Seasons: Right Now

As it has only been since last night that I wrote my first post in my new series, "Seasons", I don't necessarily have a whole lot more to say about my planning for the posts so I think I'm gonna dive right in. Something I like doing is sitting in coffee shops while I blog (VERRY original, I know). I'm in one right now and have a Pumpkin Pie Chai on one side of the table and a Coconut Chocolate Chip Scone on the other (now you can be jealous of my overpriced and extremely unhealthy consumptions so far today). This brings me to the first season I'm gonna talk about . . . . RIGHT NOW. Right now I'm 19 years old. I'm about 3 1/2 months away from moving to Kansas City for at least six months to do an internship at the International House of Prayer. I'm not a mom, not a wife and for sure don't have everything even close to figured out. I would go so far as to say that I barely have anything figured out. Now you're probably trying to fig

Gap Year(s)

In my post about going back to school this fall and the favor I've seen in the process, I said I would expound on why I'm glad I spent two years out of school. Now I know I don't always follow up on things I say I'll write "more on later" but I am for this. Let me begin with my plans as a high school senior. In high school I had quite a few changes of plans regarding what I would do after word. For a while, I planned to go to Ball State. That fell off the wagon for a few reasons that I can't remember now. A local University was my next consideration, but something kept me from deciding to go for that full fledge. The plan then became to go to a 6 month school at a Christian organization (more for personal growth than academic gain). I prayed about that more and realized that I didn't actually feel like God was pointing me to that (although I'm sure if I had gone, it would have been great). When I let that go, I didn't have a replace

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